I’ve been doing some things I’m not too proud of… Here it goes.

-I let him be with me again, he stopped talking to me after. I’m the biggest idiot in the world.

-I tried feeling limitless and to my surprise that’s what I felt. All from one simple little hit. Maybe it was six.

-I started smoking, then quit. Now, I’m starting again. If you think about it… well it could be worse.

-I haven’t smoked pot in 7 days. That could possibly be my greatest achievement.

-worst/worse really bugs me.

On a positive note I have 3 months left of school. January 22, 2012. I’m trying so hard to make my life better and brighter. Even when everything seems to be going nowhere and I still feel like shit and all I have in me is regret. Oh, how I’ve made so many mistakes.

The brighter side…

-I miss him, everyday. It’s probably the only reason I don’t give up on my dreams and aspirations. The only reason I haven’t left. He makes me a better person.

-I don’t love him, like I used to. Which is why he can now put such a positive influence on my life.

-I spent money on Manga instead of cigarettes.

-I spent money on DVDs instead of weed.

-I’m slowly learning that I’m better off on my own. I’m keeping to myself again. That makes me happy.

I’m alone and its not too bad.

I have decided to start blogging again, I’ve lost so many followers and it’s made me realize that this blog is important to my life. I’ll continue on my next break.